Mécanique De La Solitude


All alone after pollination
Having relieved my aggression to the air
And gentle towards you now
Nothing remains but despair

I think of getting drunk
Like I think of suicide (So there!)
Or my present state – alone and emptied
Any way I can hurt you without appearing to care

… Hoping you will find out later
While beneath the gentleness, feebly, I think bad thoughts of you
Though you have not done anything
Just accepted me, as I asked you to

Dissatisfied all beknown
I wish to hurt you too
As you hurt me by not needing me
Desperately, as I need you

About Ben Naga

The Spirit that graces me with its passing has no name and stems not from thoughts and words, though it gathers them up as it flows, but from feelings.

Posted on January 5, 2019, in Poetry and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink. 7 Comments.

  1. Absence will continue to vex us, no matter how we choose to fill that void.

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  2. One of your best in my opinion, but you could fit what I know about poetry in an acorn cap.

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    • Actually when I was transferring my poetry from paper some years ago I decided to not bother with this one. I’d always been in two minds about it. Then the other day I came across the piece of paper it was typed on in a pile of “scrap paper to be used on the reverse side” (anal retentive or what!) read it (ditto!!) and decided it wasn’t that bad after all. So I am glad now that I did so since you got some enjoyment from it. And don’t worry; poetry is about feeling more than knowing (IMHO) and if one likes a piece that’s quite enough.

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  3. Ben, I too enjoyed this (and can relate to it, from my own experiences long ago). After reading your replies to comments, I’m so glad you inadvertently saved it!

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    • Here’s another ancient piece you haven’t seen before I believe, Betty, which is related.


      What is no more than
      An obsession of the heart
      Only fools call love


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